Showing posts with label Anger. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Anger. Show all posts
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
worth.
This feeling is creeping in but its not cold like others. It's like a virus that spreads through my body. Mistakes are made and here I am sitting in my blood, the scrape scraping sound of flesh pulls my mind away. Punishment for my deeds. All worth is gone. Empty without a ray of sun. Grey clouds cover my horizon and I know that I deserve it.
Revisit the lacerations with the clear liquid that makes it catch on fire; 50 times the initial pain, because I deserve it. Hopes and dreams, soft touches I longed for, lips I wished to caress, those yearnings are gone, burned away in sin and blood.
Soften my heart and help me be worth it, because I am lacking in worth.
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
11/04/10
Shortest In The Room
Pretty tired tonight so I won't write very long. I can hardly even concentrate. I don't like being lied to. Just fess up. Seriously.
Pretty tired tonight so I won't write very long. I can hardly even concentrate. I don't like being lied to. Just fess up. Seriously.
10/15/10
Holy Cow, It's Political
What I really find baffling is the fact that people choose to go against good. It's so simple, good is good. It's called evil for a reason. Don't take away our freedoms, we want those.
You think we don't know what's good for us? You want to make the decisions for us humans? Us everyday people? Well, what are you? Who are you to assume you're higher up than us and therefore know best? Because you took some college classes and got promoted in the right job a few times? Did you know that you are a human too? You are the same as the rest of us. Don't you dare put yourself above us and pretend you can play God.
When you get the power to create worlds and become all knowing and omnipotent then you can begin to decide what is best for the rest if us. Until then, let's listen to everybody. That way, we can all choose. We all have a say in our fate. Because now, if it goes down the drain and you're the one stearing the boat, guess where the fingers will point. And there will be blood. You can bet on that.
What I really find baffling is the fact that people choose to go against good. It's so simple, good is good. It's called evil for a reason. Don't take away our freedoms, we want those.
You think we don't know what's good for us? You want to make the decisions for us humans? Us everyday people? Well, what are you? Who are you to assume you're higher up than us and therefore know best? Because you took some college classes and got promoted in the right job a few times? Did you know that you are a human too? You are the same as the rest of us. Don't you dare put yourself above us and pretend you can play God.
When you get the power to create worlds and become all knowing and omnipotent then you can begin to decide what is best for the rest if us. Until then, let's listen to everybody. That way, we can all choose. We all have a say in our fate. Because now, if it goes down the drain and you're the one stearing the boat, guess where the fingers will point. And there will be blood. You can bet on that.
10/12/10
Go Green! - Go Suck On A Fish.
Baby, tonight I have Harry Potter bedsheets on and I don't feel like explaining myself to you. I want a hug. Don't make out with me, just hold me like the child I still am. All I want is a security blanket wrapped around me.
I feel like my body is slowly dying. Well, I guess it is. But Z brought some knives over today and I want to say "Cut me babe, bleed me dry. Test your blades on my body." Obviously I didn't get to say it, but I wanted to.
Don't worry, I don't want him. I want... I don't want much. I want a smaller nose and firmer thighs. I want to dance the way I see it in my head. I want the Movers to say "Here I am, you're not that crazy because today I'll be real for you."
Did you see that? I'm not the only one. Anxiety creeps in the corners like theives in the shadows about to fall in. Blades glistening with my murdered sanity. Do I even have it? Did I start out with a sound body and mind?
Sound. Sound is the sound you make when everything is solid and hollow at the same time. Envision that. It's a pale ivory color, before it gets stained by the lies and sins and pollution of this earth. Not the industrial pollution (Go green! - Go suck on a fish.) The pollution that spews from every humans mouth and mind. Everybody contaminates each other. No wonder God flooded the earth.
Baby, tonight I have Harry Potter bedsheets on and I don't feel like explaining myself to you. I want a hug. Don't make out with me, just hold me like the child I still am. All I want is a security blanket wrapped around me.
I feel like my body is slowly dying. Well, I guess it is. But Z brought some knives over today and I want to say "Cut me babe, bleed me dry. Test your blades on my body." Obviously I didn't get to say it, but I wanted to.
Don't worry, I don't want him. I want... I don't want much. I want a smaller nose and firmer thighs. I want to dance the way I see it in my head. I want the Movers to say "Here I am, you're not that crazy because today I'll be real for you."
Did you see that? I'm not the only one. Anxiety creeps in the corners like theives in the shadows about to fall in. Blades glistening with my murdered sanity. Do I even have it? Did I start out with a sound body and mind?
Sound. Sound is the sound you make when everything is solid and hollow at the same time. Envision that. It's a pale ivory color, before it gets stained by the lies and sins and pollution of this earth. Not the industrial pollution (Go green! - Go suck on a fish.) The pollution that spews from every humans mouth and mind. Everybody contaminates each other. No wonder God flooded the earth.
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